It is what it is

Someone said to me this morning, "Do something fun!"

In my weary sleepy head at 7:15 am, I could not think of anything fun. "Play your guitar!" Good idea! That is fun, well, at least for 30 minutes before my hands get tired. What else is fun for me? Reading and tea. Playing Pictionary or Boogle or other word games. Doing anything that doesn't feel painful in my body.

I don't take pain very well. I like writing, it's not painful. Sure at the moment I do feel a bit stagnated and not growing in this direction (although some would say I am growing in other directions ;)) And lack of growth can be painful too. Often I find myself "busy" with things I am not sure is the right thing to be busy with, as it is taking me away from the main attraction, i.e. re-invention.

There are tiny little cups of dirt and seedlings inside, slowly pushing their little green leaves out there for the world to see. Get sunlight little green friends, grow! I love Spring with all it's growth. So exciting! I forgot what I planted so it will be a bit of a mystery. I want to get more of these little cups of dirt / miniature green houses. They are so NOT messy. I like that, clean gardening is the best.

Gardening is hard work - but it is a good pain. I know it will "bear fruit". Maybe my attitude about my pain - physical and mental - needs a bit of a shift. I am learning, whether I like it or not. Maybe it is a risk but perhaps I can reach out to people and make my community grow, just like I let my garden grow.

Once upon a time, I did like jogging and playing frisbee and generally doing stuff outside. I miss that. I want to get back up to that point again. Can I do it? Do I have my mind set on it? Therein lies the problem. The wishy washyness of it all.

So, what is it that I have my mind set on? Woe is me? That's not cool. It is what it is, but I think I could have a different mind set. I have a lot to be grateful for. Disregard the scary nightmares of death and dismemberment. They come when there is fear. Banish fear now and forever.

I have to remind myself everyday, that I am worth it. What ever it is, I am in the right place at the right time and I have to believe that there is a plan for me, and I just have to bring myself to the table every day. Faith. I have nothing to fear, because I am handpicked and very precious.

Skipping with gratitude

Hello again dear Reinventionistas, it seems I am losing the battle between consistency and creativity and, well, life, again. Never mind, I know that I need to command my dreams each day. A little bit, 5 minutes here and there and the mountain will be climbed.

Fasnacht festivities have begun in Basel and all over Europe. Apparently, it's an old Roman tradition to party in the winter and change roles from the every day. Masks and strange costumes that you wouldn't even recognize your neighbor, confetti everywhere, and jolly happy people despite the weather. It is actually a hobby and social thing for most revelers, year round to prepare for these 3 beautiful days.

This year, I am trying to avoid getting caught up in it all. We'll see how that will pan out. I have some achievements I want to try to make this month, and it's going to be a close one as I am already 8 days behind. German, Work, Health, Writing, and Comfort: they seems to be my top 5 priorities, followed then by everything else. I think I need to shake it around a bit though, as my training is getting too lazy and comfortable in each of those areas. What is Comfort you say? Yeah, I do have some habits that I keep that aren't really conducive to growth.

Perhaps for next week, my priorities should be:

1. Growth
2. Writing
3. German
4. Health
5. Work

So, what is Growth? I think it is taking risks and doing things that make me "fearless" sometimes and challenge my comfort zone. Let's take a moment from some random but inspirational quote:

"If you're not a little bit uncomfortable on a daily basis it means you're not growing. Every aspect of physical and emotional growth arrives from outside your comfort zone. So be fearless sometimes. Have the courage to take the risks that feel right. Go where there are no certainties. Stretch yourself and your routines even if it means feeling a bit uncomfortable. The road less traveled is sometimes laden with potholes, bumps, and unexplored territory. But it is on this road where your strength grows and your dreams gradually reveal themselves."

- Spencer Chapman


No more fears!!