Last week (7):
I struggled. Really struggled. Loss of sleep, loss of time. But should a struggle mean I should give up, pack it in, quit? If I don't meet my weekly goals, should I just say stop? No. I just have to re-re-re-re double my efforts. Figure out how to wake up earlier, if need be.
Sometimes I wonder what my priorities are, and why I can’t manage to sail right through my apparently SMART goals. Am I too scared or concerned about that ONE thing that I won’t make all the others goal setting tasks move on? That seems silly doesn’t it?
This is my GREAT GOAL and I really want it, yes, yes, yes! I think I am very blessed and gifted, it’s just hiding under mounds and mounds of dirt and disuse. It will take a lot of time and effort to get to it, uncover it. I have to accept that there are no shortcuts. However, there is a diamond in this rough, I know it, I have got to hold on to this belief.
Keep your eyes on the prize, hold on.
This week (8):
Story Focus!! Yeay!! I’m going to work on a story I dropped off some years ago, but I’d like to know the end of… so, characters and plot here I come… am excited to have some energy for this now. It’s a “long-distance” focus. Jog/walk sort of, the base is there, just need to round it out and complete.
Next week (9):
Dialogue work. Most of the time, I write monologues or essays. That’s fine and dandy, but in the real world, action is needed and is best conveyed by conversation. This is balancing passages with dialogue, working on saying things and moving the plot forward.
Balance is the key – one can have a verbal story (it’s called playwriting or script writing) but action is happening i.e. you have to give the actors some direction what to do. Interestingly, since you can’t “see” feelings, the actors are interpreting what the writers have provided. This should help also improve a more prose-like reading, where you are leading the reader to interpret or “see” what the character is thinking or feeling. Oooo, I wish almost I was doing this, this week!!
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So, even if “this”-- re-invention -- isn’t working perfectly for me, it is working… somehow and that’s all that matters. Perfection, whatever does that mean??
