Why week: Day 2

Two-year olds are constantly asking Mom and Dad "why?" It's a fun game for a while, but when you start to run out of answers, it is annoying. In the end, the child is unsatisfied with "because I said so". It's an eternal question of course, but I seriously doubt a 2 yr. old can fully grasp the sense and concept of eternity or forever, as most normal adults can't either. Forever has been since they were born. That's eternity to them. Perhaps one should be glad they can vocalize and express curiosity. I guess that's why I appreciate people searching for a God, rather than those non-believers. They are just not a fun bunch!

Oh, but I digress. Why is that? I want to deliver as much information in a short period of time. But its not interesting is it? It could be down right boring. Anyway... needless words...must cut out needless words...

My Whys on Writing: (excuse the lyrics, it's early)

• I want to get past "hide[ing] 'neath the covers to study" my pain; I want to stop being afraid
  
• "show a little faith" and show myself I can form the writer that resides within and be brave
• I made a promise, long ago, circa 1985 -- "we'd swore we'd always remember no retreat baby no surrender" "to cut some place of our own" with who I am
• At the moment I feel like I am in some sort of limbo state. Not fully committed to anything. I believe strongly that once I "get over" this book written or the general "writing sickness" I have, I'll be able to connect to life again, and commit and feel married to the field what ever it is I have at that stage. I am not going to go totally away, but maybe that is still fear holding me back?
  

"None but the brave / No one baby but the brave / Those strong enough to save / Something from what they gave "

if you haven't heard this song, I recommend that you buy it off iTunes. Seriously, it's from Bruce Springsteen Essentials (yeah the one CD I don't have!!). "None but the Brave".

There are other whys, just a little disconnected in my mind from those above. I'll try to address them tomorrow or later in the week.

Well, here is my list of promises. A pessimist might find some of these a bit naive, but I don't think so. These promises although on the whole optimistic doesn't mean being "Pollyanna" about things. The Promise laid here must grounded in a world that includes today's realities. One must always be ready. (We'll discuss Springsteen's Promise in an essay somewhere.)

Anyway, I found this on the internet some 6 years ago, and I still keep carrying around. Now I got to really start trying to follow it. One day at a time, renew my commitment to this each day....

I Promise:

• To be so strong that nothing can disturb my peace of mind.
• To talk health, happiness and prosperity to every person I meet.
• To make all my friends feel that there is something in them.
• To look at the sunny side of everything and make my optimism come true.
• To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as I am about my own.
• To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future.
• To wear a cheerful countenance at all times and give every living creature I meet a smile.
• To give so much time to the improvement of myself that I have no time to critize others.
• To be too large to worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy to permit the presence of trouble.

Go Gadget! Go!