What profit a man?

What profit a man (or woman) to gain the whole world and loses his own soul?

This is a paraphrasing from a biblical quote (if you really want to look it up see: Matthew 16:26, just don't ask me about The Bible!). The short answer is obviously "Nothing". I've been thinking about this on several fronts: mostly medical in nature but some more philosophical--

• lives saved vs. conflict of interest
• "ghostwriting" vs. the medical profession taking "back the night" and gaining credibility
  
• ideology vs. scientific method and objectivity
• comfort and faith vs. harms

These are the things I like to write about and think about... let's see if I can set myself some goals around them. This wouldn't be fictional writing per se, but perhaps I need to back track a bit and see what I really believe -- put pen to paper, money where my mouth is, etc. before I can get my characters to be believable and acting and plotting in a way my dear readers might conceivably act in the contrived settings I've put them in. Such personal essays are making a come-back, so I hear.

There is so much going on, so many stories, some days it seems to me there just isn't enough byte space in this universe to write and collect, and synthesize them all. The synthesis is the fun part! Ah yes, well, perhaps it is easier to be a imbecile moron than to be bittersweetly self-aware and disciplined. Hmm, interesting contrast eh?

Anyway, of course it's possible to interwine my beliefs into fiction. That's an awesome challenge..Perhaps I am more suited to science fiction and mystery then.

I can feel my soul stretching out like a sponge soaking all this good information and knowledge again... scenes and characters and plots mmmm.... but I don't want the scientist to completely dry out really she is still quite helpful at times.