Where did it all start? It was at The Spectrum in Philadelphia, Tunnel of Love Express Tour March 8th, 1988. Twenty years ago.
March 1988 is a time point that I want to return to mentally with the ideal time machine, i.e. with the maturity and lessons learned I have today. I could go back to that concert in my head, and recapture what I think I lost after a really bad experience later that same year, which has led me to experience great darkness since. I now know that I no longer have to be a victim of circumstance and can create my own success.
I can't believe I fought with myself for the past 20 years (and my parents and everyone else that would have liked to get close to me).
I went against my own dreams -- paralyzed by my own fears -- and did only what was expected of me.NO MORE!! Today was my last day of sorrows at my very stressy agency job, and all this darkness that has shrouded me for 20 years will pass....I know it and I can feel it, the thunder underneath my feet!!!
Having just turned 35 last November, I am ready for that river of joy and happiness, and am totally committed to this new life. And I know that I can't get there by myself now! I am so glad for my friends, my partner, my family, for GreasyLake, and of course, Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band!!!
More real process stuff later. It's time to celebrate, and have a good time...
