Feeling better today, cold is almost completely gone. Taking it easy, getting back on the horse so to speak.
Lots of ideas floating around and on paper, electronic form. Following through is hard. I remember all the great fantastic ideas I had when a lab rat. It's true though, you can't do them all, even if you were the most thorough methodical person in the world. You have to pick and choose which one will be most likely successful, and have a good thought process behind it. It's all about choices and keeping / staying positive. Sometimes you have to decide with not enough information. That's brave. It's what we all have to do. And we can't regret our decisions, because there are just too many decisions to make. No second guessing.
Today I am back on the horse, and also have to refresh my publication plans. Not much time until the end of the year, and I feel like I haven't achieved much. Well, I have to carry on and not drown myself in sorrow or pity for time or opportunities lost / missed. It just wasn't meant to be.
I am exactly where I want to be. Exactly where I should be. I haven't lost anything I have learned lots even though it doesn't look like it on paper.
I enjoy life. I enjoy my work. I enjoy my home, my friends, my love, my cats, my writing, my editing, my freedom. I enjoy walking and eating. I enjoy learning about the place I live and its culture. I want this place to succeed as much as I do.
I want to be healthy again so I can enjoy more things. I am starting to understand and appreciate at a deeper level what motivates me and perhaps more importantly, what does not. I need to stay in peace with myself, as it is hard to fall off the horse constantly and get back on again. To get back to the same rhythm takes time. I need to also make some effort to get others important in my life to understand and appreciate that -- I need this, I need to do this and take the time.
Oh, dear Reader. Thanks so much for listening to my babblings. :-) Will work on some writing prompts I've collected, and reading more this few weeks before I have travel plans and more getting off the horse... I have to learn to go with the flow AND find my rhythm at the same time.
